Fear is something I deal with daily. It's constantly nagging at my heels, keeping me on my toes. I constantly try to turn around and stare the beast in the eyes. Sometimes I win. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes I think doing something drastic will kill the beast, when in reality it just gets larger in ways I didn't think possible.
For instance, I decided to write a book just for me. I told myself I didn't care what anyone thought of it. So I wrote it and published it despite stigmas existing against the method I chose. Finally, after the book has been out for a few months, I've realized how many secrets about myself are in that book. It's actually quite frightening. It's even more frightening when I read reviews and listen to some readers who didn't like the book or the character I portrayed.
That aside, I think it's important we put ourselves into our work and our blog posts. People respond to honesty in all its forms. Honesty creates artistic integrity. It's essential, in my opinion.
So. A few of my other secrets?
I don't understand politics. At all. If someone brings up presidential politics, I try to blend into the wall because I'll look stupid if I open my mouth.
I really have no idea what I'm doing when it comes to writing. I rely a lot on my gut instinct and what I've learned in the past. If you ask me how I write a book, I'll answer with something that sounds smart, but in reality I'm just winging it. Seriously, good writing is just lots and lots and lots and lots of practice.
Although I love them dearly, Scott and Davin scare me because they are amazingly intelligent and I respect them more than they know. I often feel like I'm a clownish figure fumbling in the corner when I'm around them.
I am deathly afraid of being forgotten.
I know some people are much more private than others. I think I fall somewhere in the middle, and because of the last secret I just shared, I tend to share more than I'm often comfortable with - both in my writing and online. Do you have any secrets you'd like to share today?