Friday, November 18, 2011
Friday Filler with Canelés
These are my little canelés cooling. They turned out quite to my liking, although they weren't perfect. The darker ones were a little crispier on the outside, which made them wonderful. The really light colored ones, which were in the middle of the baking mold, were a bit too soft. I guess I was trying to make too many at once. One of the eaters of these canelés asked me if I would make them for her Christmas party! I didn't really set up any milestones when I decided I'd learn to bake this year, but having my food go public should be one. :)
So, it's Friday. How is everyone doing? How is your writing going? I've had a pretty bad week to tell you the truth. I had applied for a writing fellowship and made it into the top 6. Then I had an interview that I thought went unbelievably well. I find out shortly afterwards, though, that I did not get it. And I was so pathetic I even assumed the notification was a joke and I waited for another two hours for the phone call telling me so. It was no joke. I didn't get in.
Initially, I didn't want to write anymore. I hated Cyberlama. I decided that I would never ever ever have an audience again. I started writing a project plan to start my own press so that I could celebrate other people's good writing instead of suffering with my own miserable writing.
Today I'm still feeling a little depressed, but more at peace. It really helped that Donna Hole put up a review of WG and Jason King sent me a picture of my book on his summer vacation. Other people's birthday wishes helped too. So thank you everyone!
I'll probably write fiction today, which is a good step forward. I do like Cyberlama, and I'm guessing that some of you might like it too. That's enough to keep me writing, and that's what's important to me right now.
I also have to remind myself that I have specific goals and not getting into the fellowship does not keep me from reaching those goals. My actual goal was not to get into the fellowship, but to be able to learn from good writers, which is something I feel has been lacking lately. I realize now that I can still get that if I'm willing to ask people for more help. I want more feedback on my writing. That's something I can get!
Posted by Davin Malasarn at 8:10 AM